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Ron♥
All that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost; the old that is strong does not wither, deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, a light from the shadows shall spring; renenwed shall be blade that was broken, the crownless again shall be king. I'm just Ron (: br />
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You are for me.
I know that You are for me.I know that You will never, forsake me in my weaknesses I know that You have come now, even if to write upon my heart. To remind me who You are. It has been such an emotional day :') In a good way. Cried throughout worship during service. Thank you Shannon. I wanted to give up so badly, so so badly. I was tired, breathless, frustrated and just didn't feel like moving on anymore. But you took my hand and sang this to me. And i immediately felt the holy spirit fill my entire being and i wanted to cry so badly there and then in the middle of a 12km trekking expedition. Again, during kayaking. 16km. impossible? That song kept playing again and again in my head. I had a such a hard time with my partner, a china scholar that i looked at my trainer and told him that i wanted to give up so badly. I looked back at the jetty and realized that we have barely paddled 1km. He looked at me and said " Don't lose hope Ron" At that point, i was frustrated. I was beyond frustrated. i was angry, pissed off, and i wanted to break down. But something kept me going, willpower i thought. Amazingly, after the first rest stop, my partner and i got better, and better and better. I started singing and strangely encouraged her to press on and not to give up instead of screaming at her.. All my feelings of frustration and anger disappeared and i started to enjoy myself. After OBS, i felt so shiok and proud that I managed to pull through, that I managed to complete the course with minimal aches and bites. That I was the one who encouraged my friends to pull through. It was all i, me and myself. But Today made me realize that God was the one who was always always holding my hand and guiding me every step of the way, despite how distant and detached i was from him, that he would never forsake me in my weakness, and thus gave me power and strength. Cause i know that it was humanly impossible for me to have done what i did. that feeling of love and being loved just washed through me right from the start till the end of worship and i couldn't stop crying. It felt so good and so right to be close to God again. I know that you are for me :>
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