here we go again

And you had alot of crooks try to steal your head, never really had luck, couldn't ever figure out how to love

2011-12-11T22:55:00.001-08:00

2011-12-08T08:07:00.001-08:00

2011-11-30T07:27:00.001-08:00

I’m not fascinated by people who smile all the time. What I find interesting is the way people look when they are lost in thought, when their face becomes angry or serious, when they bite their lip, the way they glance, the way they look down when they walk, when they are alone and smoking a cigarette, when they smirk, the way they half smile, the way they try and hold back tears, the way when their face says they want to say something but can’t, the way they look at someone they want or love… I love the way people look when they do these things. It’s… so raw, so... real?

Homesick

2011-11-26T07:37:00.001-08:00

It's the first time i've ever missed Singapore so much, and i've only been in Hong Kong for less than 8 hours.

I'm missing out on :
1) JYC CAMP ( !!!!! )
2) FILMING (!!!!!!!!)
3) DOING HOMEWORK
4) JYC CAMP.

omg. I don't even want to be here. Plus the fact that after i arrive in Singapore, i'll be living on the couch for a month or two. Not that i don't want to be a filial grandchild but really, it's gonna be super inconvinient and well, annoying to a certain extend. PLus the fact that i've never been close to my grandma .....its gonna be pretty awkward :/ I LOVE YOU MAMA BUT BUT... aiya.

Doing good is reward in itself.

PLEASE LET TIME FLY, AND LET ME AT LEAST ENJOY THE FOOD AND SHOPPING.

Took my chinese Os. Going to Europe "alone"

2011-11-10T00:06:00.001-08:00

我长大了。

I am so excited i can't express it in words.
sjkdhfsjkdlfsdlkalkashlrkash
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

LTC 2011

2011-10-26T05:09:00.000-07:00

it was amazing.

RAISE THE ROOF, RAISE THE ROOF.
BRING IT DOWN, BRING IT DOWN.

stop and stare

2011-10-15T05:57:00.000-07:00

Life never slows down does it?

I'm terrified. Absolutely terrified of getting my results back.

I don't want the disappointed faces, i don't want the sighs, the i could have done better.

I'm so scared that i can just break down right now..

Expectations that won't be met, regrets that will overpower.

After going through the CA3 fiasco, i just can't live through it again.

I just can't, i can't. I don't know what i'll do.

The worst thing about this is that i don't know how i'll fare this time.

I have no idea.

There isn't a subject that i'm 100% sure that i'll do well in.

What to do/?

"Give me grace to see beyond this moment here,

to believe that there is nothing left to fear. That

you my God, are greater still. "

Captivating

2011-10-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

Kor Ivan if you're reading this now i'm starting to read the book (Y) >:) FINALLY.

2011-10-12T08:20:00.001-07:00

2011-10-08T03:52:00.001-07:00

One more day.

2011-10-07T23:25:00.001-07:00

I need more time.

Too many things undone.
Too many words unsaid.

2011-10-07T03:43:00.001-07:00

Loving the weather these days :')

His strength is made perfect in my weakness

2011-10-03T04:01:00.001-07:00

It's just so damn encouraging so see how my twitter timeline is flooded with tweets after tweets of biblical verses and words from God. it's at times like this where you realized that you can't do it by yourself &you gotta let Jesus take the wheel. Today's papers went better than expected :') And the fact that people in my class spent time printing enouraging verses and giving them out to everyone for encouragement just made me tear. Isaiah 40: 30-31. Even youths grow tired and weary,And young men stumble and fall,But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles,They will run and not grow weary,They will walk and not be faintOne week7moredays.Let's tango.

2011-09-19T06:40:00.001-07:00

“Don’t walk behind me; I may not lead. Don’t walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.”

2011-09-19T05:56:00.001-07:00

Doing good is reward in itself.

2011-09-19T05:50:00.001-07:00

2011-09-05T11:20:00.001-07:00

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

Mitch Albom

2011-09-05T10:04:00.000-07:00

This too shall pass

2011-08-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

I look back at all my previous blog posts and i smile to myself.

WHOA, i was really a mess.

I would have been worried for myself :P

I've come to a realization that living in the past, dwelling in those wonderful memories will actually

rob the memory of its joy and happiness. And sometimes, missing something IS part of making it a good memory. Without the missing part, the memory won't even be what it is said to be. Awonderful memory. It would be just any other old thought or moment you've spent.

Dwelling in those 2010 moments, i was filled with what ifs, regrets, remorse. So much so that i was blinded by what 2011 has brought . I kept comparing everything to last year, to what could have been. But actually, i've been blessed with so much more this year-- so, so much more.

I believe everyone has this inner samurai inside of them.

I read this on bern's blog before and it really really stuck with me.

"When everyone says that they 'want to die' , what they really mean is that they want to live. You say you want to die when you are at your lowest point, and it is at this lowest point, and it is at this lowest point that you are probably not living at all " People want "to die." because they desperately want to live.

I've been so overwhelmed with work/pressure/ self-pity/self-hate that i.... broke.

I simply fell apart.

I've been bottling up so much thoughts/emotions/ pressure that it all came crumbling down one night and i just sat on my room floor with my guitar in my hands and cried. and cried. and cried. I thought i that i could do it, that i was able to deal with it. To put on a smile, and maybe everything will just fall into place. But running away just made it worst. Things soon snowballed and i couldn't take it anymore.

No one knew. Not many could tell, not even my closet friends. But i was slowly falling apart. I think only you

could tell and i'm so so grateful for having you in my life. But not even my closest closest friends could tell. Even when I tried to tell them, they didn't understand. They thought that it was a phase, stress overload, but they didn't know the intensity of it. and that was how good i was, and that itself was extremely scary now as i look back.

My results this term can be a clear reflection of what i was going through. Absolute crap. I've never done so so badly in my life, and i'm sure I'll never perform this badly ever again.

My parents had no clue about this. They blamed my results on my always watching the telly. But honestly, i can tell you i have no idea what was airing the past month. I would just turn on the tv, and stone. Turn on the comp, and stone. I was simply so lost/aimless. I had no drive, no purpose and i simply ran out of faith. passion. joy.

But my God is good. My God is really really really good. God works in such witty/ powerful ways then i will never fathom.

Just when i thought it will be another failure. He gave me a glimmer a hope. A sticker. A pat on the back. A job well done. I cried. In school. But this time, not a sad/regretful kind of cry. It was a wow, why are you so good to me cry. A cry of elation, of hope.

I went home that day and suddenly it was like a cloud of grey was lifted from my head :)

No more disappointed faces. I needed to see a smile again.

I felt so relieved and safe, knowing he was watching over me the whole way.

That someone was there all the while.

God ah, Y U SO FUNNY :P

But you're stronger, stronger than you know.

Chin up my friends, this too shall pass. I promise.

No more disappointed faces, not mine, not anybody else's.

2011-08-29T03:02:00.001-07:00

2011-08-22T07:47:00.001-07:00

“Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs. Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them.”

—	Ralph Waldo Emerson

2011-08-21T07:32:00.000-07:00

“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.”

2011-08-19T18:25:00.001-07:00

2011-08-19T04:09:00.001-07:00

Isn’t it odd how much fatter a book gets when you’ve read it several times? As if something were left between the pages every time you read it. Feelings, thoughts, sounds, smells, and then, when you look at the book again many years later, you find yourself there, too, a slightly younger self, slightly different, as if the book had preserved you like a pressed flower, both strange and familiar.

I need to stop living for myself and live for something bigger, someone better.

2011-08-16T03:26:00.001-07:00

2011-08-16T03:18:00.001-07:00

There are two types of people who ask how you're doing. 1) Curious people 2) People who truly care . Who do you tell your problems to?

2011-08-13T05:53:00.000-07:00

Just realized facebook has this little corner in your profile page that says " On this day in 2010" :')

365 days ago, i was happy.

And smiling, for real-- not because i had to.

God my God, i cry out, your beloved needs you now.

till we meet again.

2011-08-12T08:38:00.000-07:00

There's been so much on my plate, I don't know what to do.

To cry?

To scream?

You're not gonna see me cry this time, i'll survive you.

till we meet again.

2011-08-08T10:24:00.001-07:00

Today's here.

The day I've been dreading & hating.

please, don't go?

thank you.

2011-08-07T08:01:00.000-07:00

i really really Thank God for giving me such an amazing class+ (mates)

the only thing that has been keeping me sane during school hours,

the ones that cheer up up when i look "sad" but i'm just dead tired. The ones that make me laugh so hard, i swear i feel packs forming now. The ones that make me see the meaning in school life.

WE LOVE MRS CHITRA. She came strolling into class on friday with two trays of brownies, gloves and a knife. " Girls, i brought... FOOD!! I need to pump sugar into your blood, you guys are DEAD" So we spent the entire hour of class eating brownies ( which were really good! ) and performing our NDP item to her. After a standing ovation " Girls, i'm going to be the first one to run up with flowers on that day okay!! "

GOTTA LOVE YOUR FORM TEACHER <3

WHATS MORE. they surprised me.

and smashed a cake in my face. ( most fun night OF MY LIFE )

*sung to the tune of TGIF *

Boom boom boom, even brighter than the moon moon moon,
It’s always been inside of you, you, you, so now it’s time to let it boommm…

On the 9th of august, we all come together,
Flags and stars are being raised, red and white in every place.
Tonight at Marina Bay, it’ll be bright in every way.
Light the skies with fireworks, we will all progress onwards.

Resorts world sentosa, Universal Studios, OH YEAH
It’s a green garden city, we will all stand proud and sing. (SING!)

It’s national day, yeah we’re turning 46,
and we’re dancing to the beat, just forget about the heat.
Let’s celebrate, our progress had been made,
From the kampongs we graduate, to the city—life’s so great,
From our forefathers till today.

Cause its national day! Let us all commemorate,
This very special day, so we shout hip hip hooray!
The parade is marching in, voices singing in the wind.
“Ya you know I’m not kidding”, Workers’ party didn’t win.

National day … do it allll again.
We’re forty sixx… come on celebrate

Trying harder day by day, we will never say no way
Bring it on, Singapore boleh. Lion, tigers, crest and all.
Singapore is winning, and we’re never stopping
2012 we’re coming and you won’t bring us down!

Jurong Bird Park, Singapore flyer. OHH!
It’s a happy country we will all stand proud and sing! (SING!)

It’s national day, yeah we’re turning 46,
and we’re dancing to the beat, just forget about the heat.
Let’s celebrate, our progress had been made,
From the kampongs we graduate, to the city—life’s so great,
From our forefathers till today.

Singapore boleh, yeah we got the food for thought
Biggest sea port, many stops.
Streets so clean, we’re so appalled.
We got haze, at least we are not burning trees,
NEwater, tap so clean
Come on, let us all go green.
IN singaporeeeeee!

2011! Singapore flyer! Formula one! General elections! Changi Airport!

Majuuulaaaahhh Singapurrraa!

we're gonna win 2011/2012. #3DESPICABLEME

why do i treat national day so indifferently this year?

2011-08-03T03:35:00.001-07:00

2011-08-03T03:34:00.000-07:00

“Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.”

we're too young to be this burdened.

2011-08-02T05:08:00.000-07:00

2011-07-28T08:23:00.001-07:00

2011-07-24T04:56:00.000-07:00

“Let’s face it - English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren’t invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren’t sweet, are meat. We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.
And why is it that writers write but fingers don’t fing, grocers don’t groce and hammers don’t ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn’t the plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn’t it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?
If teachers taught, why didn’t preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell? How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which an alarm goes off by going on. English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race (which, of course, isn’t a race at all). That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.”

2011-07-23T06:57:00.001-07:00

2011-07-22T04:33:00.001-07:00

that's what faith can do

2011-07-19T08:30:00.000-07:00

Everybody falls sometimes, gotta find the strength to rise from the ashes, and make a new beginning.

I tear/cry every time i watch this. It's so applicable.

With so many new commitments/ studies not working out well. Self-doubt, condemnation, being so disheartened and discouraged. Faith ; what a word.

sometimes it just feels like its more than i can take, and i just want to turn around and say I GIVE UP. but.. life is so much more.

Anyone can feel the ache, you think its more than you can take,

but you're stronger, stronger than you know.

Don't you give up now,

the sun will soon be shining.

sundays

2011-07-17T05:03:00.001-07:00

Today was. pretty . good

Had a nice one hour plus talk with kor ivan today over teh (;

Recently, I felt quite detached from everything. Detached from God, detached from friends, detached from my family, detached from studies.

Cried so bad during service today. From the first note of the syn till the last strum of the guitar. I think i scared crys :P

Your love never fails,

never gives up,

never runs out on me

Cried a little harder every time they repeated those lines.

Felt so overwhelmed by God's abundant and undying love,

the lyrics of every song felt like it was God comforting me,

pouring his love and care out to me.

After a while, it felt like a stone was lifted from my heart and

i could finally breathe again (:

Had lunch with my parents, it felt really good.

I've been quite an ingrate the past few months and its a simple meal but i'm sure

they enjoyed it as much as i did.

Adults talk bs too :P

You are good, You are good
When there's nothing good in me
You are love, You are love
On display for all to see
You are light, You are light
When the darkness closes in
You are hope, You are hope
You have covered all my sin.

ryc 2011

2011-07-17T04:43:00.000-07:00

Haven't had so much fun in a looonngggg time :')

Day one

Emceeing was definitely fun. Bern and I practically slept/ate through all the boring talks backstage :P

Since I was groupless, i got the chance to mingle around with people from schools and make some new friends.

My toes also hurt really bad that day. Need to get new heels.

OKAY SERIOUSLY MG GIRLS NEED TO GET A LIFE.

E mae, Sof and I were geirfglierjkhglrehtihreiht about the whole as charles and sof calls it "kpop" thing.

Day two

DA AMAZING RACE

Okay so it wasn't really THAT amazing.

At first my group got really frustrated and bored at CSM.

So tried to hype things up and get their spirits up.

BUT NOOO.

LOANDBEHOLD.

We had to wait for 1 hour at our next station.

BUT that was when things changed (THANK GOODNESS)

We started playing dare and dare, polar bear, murderer, telling stupid jokes.

We had some pretty wacky dares alright. I got dared to ask for some random stranger's number.

Thank goodness the next stranger that walked up was a woman :p

There wasn't enough time to finish the race so we headed back to school.

THAT WAS WHEN THE REAL FUN STARTED :')

We really bonded over building the (failed) sculpture and don's winged explanation got us an ( assumed self-consolation ) seven out of ten :p

Played murderer again, and again, and again, it was hiliarious (:

Dinner was alright, but overall. RYC helped me get my mind off things and to really have fun and make new friends, so i'm thankful for it.

Afterall, this earth is ours, this earth is yours, and This Earth is Mine - Welcome to this years Regional Youth Conference 2011...

2011-07-10T08:47:00.000-07:00

I'm a pro at crastinating.

2011-06-26T06:23:00.001-07:00

School's officially starting tomorrow.

The 40 day fast is starting on friday.

RYC technical rehearsal next week.

Busy busy busy.

and the realization of just how close the Big Os were really hit me hard today. HARD.

Went to acjc page for fun and to my horror, sec 3's results were part of the dsa requirement. and i was like :O:O:O:O NO WAYYY.

Firstly,

Applicants are to have achieved the following minimum vocal qualifications:

v LAMDA Voice and/or Trinity Guildhall (minimum Grade 6) or equivalent

WTH IS THIS?!?!

And/or

v Students who are highly proficient in movement or acting or technical arts are to show a record of high levels of achievement on their areas e.g. National and International Competitions and/or State Representations / international conferences / professional internships. YIPPIE -.-

Secondly,

v Secondary 3 and 4 mid-terms and year-end examination reports.

GREAT. just great. Sec three mid terms? Let me see, i failed two subjects >:(

Called fang and we started freaking out for a good 30 mins, scream talking into the phone, freaking out about life, growing up, fantasizing about our futures, how we'll motivate each other and never giving up :'> ( NEVER SAY NEVER ) *burst into song* and we realized that our likes/strengths/weaknesses were so alike that it was uncanny.

It was really comforting to have someone who has the same aspiration/goal as you, and to have someone who understands. Without fail, every single time we talk on the phone, it'll be about life. And it's pretty cool cause i feel rejuvenated and motivated after every freak out/deep talk session cause it makes me reflect on how i've been spending my time so frivolously. I mean, everyone has 24 hours in a day, but why are there successful people like Albert Einstein and Thomas Edison and then there are people like me...and fang. AHAHA.

Actually i'm pretty glad that the 40 day fast is just round the corner. Fasting from social networking sites (making fang change my password) will really make my life more productive. honestly, I can idle on the internet for hours, doing... nothing. I mean, what's twitter/tumblr/formspring/youtube/facebook gonna do to help your future. nothing. heh, that actually means that i can technically not touch my computer for months if not for homework that requires microsoft word.

Anything that requires me to speak publicly nowadays kinda sends a shiver down my spine, ever since SYF. uggghh . RYC? In front of people from all over the world?! I can totally imagine myself saying this, " Good evening ladies and gentlemen. Welcome to the regional youze conferenze twenchy eleburn ". No one has ever picked on my every syllabus and consonant, enunciation, pronunciation, the way my mouth moved (?) before. And it really scared the crap out of me. On a daily basis, i really can't be bothered to enunciate my words as long as i get the message across, i talk like a bullet train, mix my words together, YES YES i know it is bad. But on stage it's like a whole new world/concept and suddenly i'm like under a microscope and being scrutinized for my every word. Scariest/most stressful thing EVER. Nevertheless this will be a great experience so i'm gonna do it :> quite excited actually.

Term 3, bring it.

#18.

2011-06-25T01:17:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA OMG THIS.

2011-06-21T05:29:00.001-07:00

2011-06-21T05:04:00.000-07:00

2011-06-18T00:23:00.000-07:00

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

CAMP UPGRADE.

2011-06-12T09:46:00.001-07:00

Something good

Something wonderful

So powerful

2011-06-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

I didn't go, not because i couldn't make it.

I didn't go because i knew that if i went, someone else would have felt left out.

So why not be left out together?

I mean two is better than one right?

Plus i don't think she needs that in her life right now.

So i didn't go, because it was worth it and because a friend's feelings was more valuable than having an afternoon of fun without her.

2011-06-12T04:56:00.001-07:00

“God made me a girl. And He did that on purpose. But He asks me to become the kind of girl who is actually useful to His kingdom purposes. I need to become the sort of girl who is unafraid to poke my head into the battle of the ages and cry out, “Who is this uncircumcised Philistine who is blaspheming the armies of the living God?” God wants me to wrestle. God wants to stick grit in my girliness. He wants me to be prepared to tangle, to interlock my soul in this eternal combat—- not with other girls, not with sweaty boys, but with Him, and with the otherworldly powers of darkness. He wants me to wrestle in prayer, to grab ahold of His great and precious promises and fight to see them unfurled in living reality on this Earth.”

—	Leslie Ludy, Wrestling Prayer

I believe in Christ like I believe in the sun. Not because I can see it, but by it I can see everything else

2011-05-31T04:41:00.001-07:00

2011-05-29T05:52:00.001-07:00

You are for me.

2011-05-29T04:17:00.000-07:00

I know that You are for me.
I know that You will never,
forsake me in my weaknesses

I know that You have come now,
even if to write upon my heart.
To remind me who You are.

It has been such an emotional day :')

In a good way.

Cried throughout worship during service.

Thank you Shannon.

I wanted to give up so badly, so so badly. I was tired, breathless, frustrated and just didn't feel like moving on anymore. But you took my hand and sang this to me. And i immediately felt the holy spirit fill my entire being and i wanted to cry so badly there and then in the middle of a 12km trekking expedition.

Again, during kayaking.

16km.

impossible?

That song kept playing again and again in my head.

I had a such a hard time with my partner, a china scholar that i looked at my trainer and told him that i wanted to give up so badly. I looked back at the jetty and realized that we have barely paddled 1km.

He looked at me and said " Don't lose hope Ron"

At that point, i was frustrated. I was beyond frustrated. i was angry, pissed off, and i wanted to break down.

But something kept me going, willpower i thought.

Amazingly, after the first rest stop, my partner and i got better, and better and better.

I started singing and strangely encouraged her to press on and not to give up instead of screaming at her.. All my feelings of frustration and anger disappeared and i started to enjoy myself.

After OBS, i felt so shiok and proud that I managed to pull through, that I managed to complete the course with minimal aches and bites. That I was the one who encouraged my friends to pull through.

It was all i, me and myself.

But

Today made me realize that God was the one who was always always holding my hand and guiding me every step of the way, despite how distant and detached i was from him, that he would never forsake me in my weakness, and thus gave me power and strength. Cause i know that it was humanly impossible for me to have done what i did.

that feeling of love and being loved just washed through me right from the start till the end of worship and i couldn't stop crying.

It felt so good and so right to be close to God again.

I know that you are for me :>

philophobia

2011-05-28T03:15:00.001-07:00

sometimes, its better when people don't ask you how you are.

Even though they know that something's wrong.

its easier that way

for both sides.

OBS was.. wow.

2011-05-27T05:48:00.001-07:00

May taught me to remember, and let go.

2011-05-22T06:57:00.000-07:00

Cried buckets full of tears.

Why'd you have to go?

I guess i've learnt that the knowledge of knowing someone is there, isn't enough.

Its still considered as taking that person for granted.

I'll miss you ally ):

You say that this is for the best, so tell me why am i in tears?

Promise me you’ll always remember: You’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.

2011-05-19T07:49:00.001-07:00

2011-05-16T03:25:00.000-07:00

“But I think, personally, that it would be worse to have been alone all that time. Sure, maybe I would have protected my heart from some things, but would that really have been better? To hold myself apart because I was too scared that something might no be forever?”
— Sarah Dessen, This Lullaby

i need a epiphany, a miracle.

2011-05-15T05:27:00.001-07:00

i guess i'm just distancing myself cause i know that it'll never happen

2011-05-15T04:51:00.000-07:00

its 2am and i can't sleep.

2011-05-13T11:01:00.000-07:00

and i don't know why.

“We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.”
Eleanor Roosevelt

Ida, great

2011-05-08T06:42:00.000-07:00

I hate blood tests >:(
And this happens during exam period. ARGAAGHHHHH

I closed my eyes. I was awfully tired.

2011-05-05T05:12:00.001-07:00

too many cooks spoil the soup

2011-05-03T07:42:00.000-07:00

2011-04-28T04:15:00.000-07:00

do whatever you want,

but never ,

disappoint

yourself.

then i guess i've failed.

2011-04-28T04:14:00.002-07:00

play some music,

and move

on.

2011-04-22T10:08:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, God pushes us out of our comfortable lives to teach us to trust Him. We may fall a bit, but He will never let us hit the ground. So when you think you've reached rock bottom, think again.

now i really got the beiber fever

2011-04-18T06:19:00.000-07:00

OMG so charming!

can't wait for tomorrow night <333333333

2011-04-15T22:32:00.000-07:00

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over his lap. When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice. When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back. When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row. When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house. When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste. When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter. When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could. When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night. When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn. When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends. When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deep he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country. When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children. And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.

After reading this on tumblr, my heart felt really heavy. Really really heavy.

I'm sorry daddy ):

Science and Faith

2011-04-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

You won't find faith and hope

down a telescope

You won't find hope and soul

in the stars

You can break everything down to chemicals

But you won't find a love like ours.

THE SCRIPT

2011-04-11T04:40:00.001-07:00

2.MORE.ROWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM <33333333

2011-04-05T06:56:00.001-07:00

2011-04-04T07:01:00.000-07:00

72 : SYF's in 2 days. FREAK.OUT

73. I snap my fingers and fidget DAMN alot when i'm pressured or under stress :P

74. When i'm listening to a teacher during class, like 100%, i'd snap at you if you talk to me

75. I'm such a girl that i can't stand it

76. I have pimple breakouts during stressful seasons >:(

77. SCHOOL SUZKZKZKZKZKZKZKZZKZK

78. VERB <3

79. I told everyone my mum was a police woman when i was P1 :P

80. I don't wanna grow up.

81. I laugh too loudly, crumble too easily.

82. My favourite season is Christmas <3

83. I'm a TERRIBLE gift buyer.

84. Believe or not but i can be quite the introvert.

85. My last 3 phones were all Nokia and i'm still being loyal.

86. I tend to tell whoever's next to me that i need to pee HAHAHAHA

87. i Love MG

88. I live 5 mins away from rachel

89. I live a life full of if onlys...

90. I'm a coward

91. Acoustic songs > everything else

92. i really suck in managing my time

93. I've no self-control

94. I used to the be teacher's pet from P1-3 ;))

95. THE SCRIPT NEXT WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

96. I'm falling in love with coldplay (:

97. I take 10 mins to get ready and get out of the house on any occasion

98. I always reflect on my day when i bathe :P

99. :> is my favourite smiley to use :>

100. I have now told the world 100 facts about me (:

i need to sleep.

telll me about it

2011-04-04T06:59:00.000-07:00

COUNTDOWN : 2 more days.

2011-04-02T00:20:00.001-07:00

"Someday we’ll know if love can move a mountain.
Someday we’ll know why the sky is blue.
Someday we’ll know why I wasn’t meant for you. "

- A walk to remember

to love is to be vulnerable

2011-04-01T06:04:00.000-07:00

2011-03-31T04:18:00.000-07:00

50. I realised that i'm really lazy to type so reaching 50 is a great accomplishment.

51. I freak out whenever i do simultaneous equations and get a fraction as the answer.

52. I make weird noises whenever my mouth opens to speak but my brain can't process it fast enough. HEH my tuition teacher used to call it "whale noises" :P

53. 2010 was the best year of my life.

54. Sec 3 is murderous

55. SYF's in 6 days and we're gonna kick ass, I DON'T CARE.

56. Every morning when i wake up, I silent scream to let out all the stress of that day before going to the toilet :P

57. I rarely get angry, i'll just get pissed/annoyed.

58. I get stressed over stupid things while trying to remember them.

59. I tend to keep to myself alot.

60. I fall ill VERY easily, usually after a major exam/hectic period.

61. I don't even think i've got an immune system.

62. I NEVER have cramps :P OH YEAHHH okay maybe once.

AWKWARD.

63. I was a super rebel in P5&6. LIKE REALLY.

64. People laugh at me cause i'm different, but i'd ALWAYS laugh back at them cause they're all the same. Ridiculous isn't it?

65. I don't use my phone a lot. I can live without it. But i might feel paranoid without it, like what if someone was trying to contact me regarding something really important?! :O

66.Pastor Kan sends me to school everyday :P
67. I'M GOING EASTERN EUROPE. ONDIKSNFDNSJKNKLNJN@J#NJ#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
68. I like to go for night walks.
69. I'd rather have a hot beverage than a cold one-- unless there's an exception.
70. I love veggies <3

2011-03-28T06:06:00.000-07:00

36. I'm terrified of this oxymoron called love and i don't know why.
37. I hate my hair.
38. I wanna continue ballet.
39. One of my biggest regrets in my life is spoiling my eyes on purpose cause i thought glasses were cool. GOODNESS ME.
40. I play the piano and guitar and can't master either one of them >:(
41. I used to have this phobia of going to classes alone cause of this horrible art teacher i had :/ Which might explain why i can't draw to save my life.
42. Which leads to this incident ; i once drew a "human being" and showed it to my mum when i was a kid and she thought it was a gorilla.
43. I used to have really really deep dimples ;> They're fading away noww :<
44. I love my this year's class and i really really Thank God for them.
45. I love stationary. I have this OCD syndrome about them and i buy notebooks on impulse and for no apparent reasons.
46. I have quite the family.
47. I have secret spazzz dance sessions to destress in ma room ;)
48. I once stole newspaper from my neighbouring class during this "best green class " crap in P1 cause my friends dared me to. I got caught, and the form teacher stormed into class and screamed at me. I want quit school and i felt SOOOO bad, all the way till like P4? HEH.
49. I'm kinda the stay-at-home kid? as in i love going out, but i wouldn't mind staying at home?I love going home. SHIT I"M SO WEIRD/NERD/WEIRDDDD!
50. I don't really like hk, other than the food and shopping. The culture, environment. Sorry but NO WAYY will i ever live there

2011-03-28T05:57:00.000-07:00

sofilia says:
roooooooooooon

Ronice says:
your pp is SO not hot

sofilia says:
excues me
he's so damn hot ogayyyy
Ronice says:
EEWWW
shing voice
sofilia says:
hahahahaha
hes damn hot here lah please!
how was drama today? didja find ur glasses?
Ronice says:
NOPE I DIDN'T! ):::
we're improvin
sofilia says:

Ronice says:
but still need time and time is what we don't have :/
sofilia says:
told you that you would!!
you still do lah
Ronice says:
HELLO
sofilia says:
hi
Ronice says:
3 MORE PRACTICES
sofilia says:
that's enuf man
Ronice says:
go die please

sofilia says:
hahahahahhaa
fine
Ronice says:
BYEEE
see you in heaven
HAHAHHAAHAH
sofilia says:
hurrrhurrrr
didnt we have a conversation like this sometime ago???
ron i'm so tired
Ronice says:
me too ):
whatdoya mean sometime ago
sofilia says:
i just came back from class
hahahah
Ronice says:
we have pointless convos everyday!
):
don't care about homework lah
sofilia says:
thats a very good point
Ronice says:
just sleep
sofilia says:
hahaha
i'm doing my lit only then off to bed ^^
Ronice says:
aiyo
i gotta revise my work
but i'm probably not gonna do it
sofilia says:
aiy...
we have no lives i tell you
Ronice says:
IKR.
sofilia says:
heh
Ronice says:
TELL ME BOUT IT

no wait, don't
i'll be bored
sofilia says:
MUAHAHAHAHHAHA
Ronice says:
OH BURN!
HEHEHEE I LOVE SOFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
I HATE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
I ABHOR YOUUUUUUUUUU
YOU SUCK
sofilia says:
are you like having split personality problems?
Ronice says:
YOU VACCUUM
YOU SWEEP
sofilia says:
i think you should go see the counsellor
Ronice says:
sorry, i'm tired
sofilia says:

HAHAHHAHAHA
Ronice says:

sofilia says:
YOU BIG WEIRDO
Ronice says:
i bet when you saw i love you sof you were like AWWW
then you saw the rest and was like -.-
sofilia says:
i was like 'eh.. why she suddenly so nice?' then it was like 'oh there's the ron i know'
Ronice says:

HEHEHE I LOVE YOU SOF
@here we go again
HEHEHE
sofilia says:
youre such a twirp!
hahahahah
Ronice says:
TWIT!
TER
TWITTER!
sofilia says:

i'm so tired alr yet you splash me with all this junk
Ronice says:
its my failed attempt to make you laugh :/

OMG i love my friends :')

#100factsaboutme

2011-03-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

Fact 1. I'm allergic to bananas >:(
Fact 2 : Math was actually my best subject last term. MIRACLES.
Fact 3 : I've a UBER SENSITIVE throat. I've been having sore throats all my life and it pisses me off .
Fact 4 : i ABHOR people who accuse me of doing something i did not. i get super angsty and rude.
Fact 5 : I once told a boy that i'll marry him one day ------ when i was five ;)
Fact 6 : I watch tv like nobody's business and i'm not proud of it.
Fact 7 : I once picked up an undergarment and shoved it in some strangers face thinking it was my mum :/
Fact 8 : You'll never know what's going on in my life until i tell you.I'm the way I am everyday,rain or shine,good or bad.
Facts 9 : I have a inner horse ;))
Fact 10 : My door has to be either fully opened or fully closed.
Fact 11 : I never write on the flip sides on notebook pages cause i hate it when the ink seeps through >:(
Fact 12 : miss 2I )':
Fact 13 : Duard introduced me to coldplay and i've been in love with them every since :>
Fact 14 ; I AM FREAKING GOING FOR THE SCRIPT!!!!!!!
Fact 15 : I crumble under pressure. I don't comprehend how people can work well under it.
Fact 16 : I think Lady's fingers are disgusting goos that was chopped off from a alien's hands and the name egg plant does not make sense.
Fact 17 : One day i'll tour Europe with someone i love.
Fact 18 : I can't live without my schedule book or i'll have this constant impression that my life will fall apart due to disorganization :P
Fact 19: I think Zac Efron looked gorgeous in 17 again/ Charlie St Clouds.
Fact 20 : But i still think Chace Crawford is STILL gorgeous-er ;))
Fact 21: I slept less than 20 hours the past week.
Fact 22 : I don't know how i survived without caffeine or tea.
Fact 23 : Someone needs to teach me how to master the art of sleepinginclassandnotbeingafraidofbeingcaughtbyourteacher.
Fact 24 : I tend to not enunciate whenever i speak fast or when i just can't be bothered.
Fact 25 : i prefer noodles to rice-- hands down.
Fact 26 : My favourite model is Babara Palvin ( GORGEOUS I TELL YOU )
Fact 27: In school, my best subjects are lit and english.
Fact 28 : I have never had Chinese tuition.
Fact 29 : I tend to cry alot during sad movies :"(
Fact 30 : I actually think skirts are much more comfortable than pants but the inconvenience level is like 5435453436486468%.
Fact 31 : I am quite the tumblr addict.
Fact 32 : I seriously don't see the point in swearing.
Fact 33 : If my house was on fire, i'd grab as many photos on my board as i can, grab my sister/mum/dad and run.
Fact 34 : My favourite authors are Nicholas Sparks and Mitch Albom.
Fact 35 : I think Justin Beiber is quite the charmer SOMETIMES ;)

2011-03-22T07:18:00.000-07:00

“I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a life. I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

Maya Angelou

2011-03-21T09:22:00.000-07:00

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

1,2,3 let's run away from here and scream our hearts out

2011-03-21T07:56:00.000-07:00

I need to scream out. LOUD.

Let everything that i've been bottling up, out.

I need to.

not.

faith, hope, love.

Grant me strength :/

the secret of life, is to fall down 7 times and to get up 8 times :>

2011-03-20T06:12:00.000-07:00

School.
Let me put it this way.
Tues is Chinese CT, Thurs is English CT, Mon, Wed, Fri are Drama practices. And it's only Term 2 Week 1 :O

have faith.

When you're struggling with something, look at the people around you and realise that every single person you see is struggling with something. And to them, its just as hard as what you're going through.

Have faith.

<3 :')

2011-02-20T06:08:00.001-08:00

My wedding's gonna be like that ;>

yesterday, you said tomorrow. Just do it.

2011-02-20T04:28:00.001-08:00

Watched Mulan again last night, for probably the 100th time since birth :P But everytime i watch it, a particular sentence or scene will never fail to inspire and touch me.

" I guess i'm just trying to do the right thing so that when i look in the mirror, i see someone worthwhile " This line made me tear up.

Life's kinda pointless without a goal everyday ain't it? The pointless cycle of school, studies? But i wanna go to heaven with a smile on my face. and when God asks me what i've done on earth, i can proudly tell him that i've changed the life of one person at least.

Yes that shall be my goal :>

2011-01-05T04:10:00.000-08:00

Its just so nostalgic seeing the new ones entering MG with expectant yet nervous hearts :)
And i feel so old! WOW, sec 3 already. I know it isn't actually WOW, but its WOW WOW to me. I'm still not used to being called class 3D or Sec three for that matter. When i hear people talking about 2I i still turn instinctively but then i'll smile to myself and reminisce the good old times (;
Orientation Camp tomorrow, its gonna hectic, but its gonna be rewarding >

2011

2011-01-02T23:37:00.001-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GORGEOUS (:

Thank You for always being there for me and being the bestie that i once thought only existed in movies. Thank You for bringing the best out of me and never letting me give up. As you turn 15 on this delightful day, i'm sorry i can't be right there with you now ( codeword : MUM ) but i'll give you your present tomorrow on the first day of school. I pray that in 2011, you'll continue being the person that you are now and don't let anyone try to tell you otherwise. Please do not listen to the voices in your head at night and just know that i love you. You'll find your Dear John someday and when you do, I BETTER be your bride's maid ;)>

2011-01-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

Courage is not the absence of fear,
but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear.
The brave might not live forever, but the cautious will not live at all.

don't you just adore disney movies? (:

2011-01-01T07:07:00.001-08:00

2011-01-01T07:04:00.000-08:00

new beginnings

2010-12-31T09:09:00.000-08:00

You know that feeling, when you're going up a roller coaster. The feelings of anticipation, nervousness, skeptism, but yet you're excited? Then when you go down, there are some times when you're up and high and there are also times where you're down and you're like " this ride sucks >:( ) But before you know it, after all the screaming and yelling, the ride's over really quick and you go for another ride in the park and it just goes on and on?

yeah, that's just how i'm feeling right now. This is how i'm feeling about 2011 and how i felt about 2010. I'm apprehensive and afraid that i can't cope with all the commitments and responsibilities that will be thrown upon me but i'm also kinda excited to see what's in store for me and how God's gonna work miracles in my life. I'm gonna treasure 2011, cause i've learnt from 2010 that as you grow up, time slips past faster and faster and before you know it, it's over. I'll treasure the friendships i've made and strengthened in 2010 and bring it forward to 2011. It means too much to me to be neglected. I'll treasure it because i know that i should and because God is good (:

Letting go has never been easy, but holding on can be as difficult. Yet strength is measured not by holding on, but by letting go.

2010-12-09T03:51:00.000-08:00

2010-12-09T03:45:00.000-08:00

You will be great.

2010-12-09T03:39:00.000-08:00

God says you will. Never mind your flaws and your imperfections and doubts, your Father’s gonna be right by you. Your today does not dictate your tomorrow. And God has begun a great work in you, and it doesn’t matter what other people have said, it doesn’t matter what you’ve said, it doesn’t matter what the devil has said - You will be great.

SRR ;)

2010-11-24T07:37:00.000-08:00

Thank God for blessing the hearts of the little ones :)

I am so H.A.P.P.Y, and i will tell you why, I know that my God loves me and he tells me all the time <3

:')

2010-11-18T20:23:00.001-08:00

You know when you're just really sad and you really want to tell someone but you're scared they might think weirdly of you? Or you don't want to pass off as a crybaby or a whiny kid? But then you've got no one else to talk to and so you just shut yourself into a tight space in your mind and stay there, crying to yourself? You know the feeling you get when you look everywhere around you but you can't find anyone? You can't find someone who you want to talk to and you're just hopeless? And then you shake your head hoping it's a dream, hoping that when you wake up your mom would come into your room to tell you it's okay? Sometimes, I don't care. Sometimes, I hide myself inside the room, inside the dream. But sometimes, I wish I could find someone that would listen. Listen to by crying and my yelling and my venting. And all they'd have to say is: "Don't worry, kid, you've got me."

2010-11-18T07:27:00.000-08:00

there are only the pursued, the pursuing, the busy, and the tired

2010-11-18T07:11:00.000-08:00

2010-11-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

meet me in the winter wonderland

2010-11-10T21:30:00.000-08:00

HK is awesome lah :) but part of me kinda hoped that this trip wouldn't be as long as it is, cause i'm missing out on so much in Singapore :'( I just spent like 2 hours on the comp doing nothing, tumblring and facebooking, and lemme tell you, facebook is BLEGH. Can you believe i'm doing my work in hk? omg, there's absolutely not enough time to complete my proposals and homework cause its so hard to contact everyone via mail >:( The stupid math ace-learning thingum is also killing me slowly, cause there's so much to do and it makes me feel like an imbecile. " Factorise 3y-3. OMG, SERIOUSLY?! i know my math sucks, but that?! -.- finished it in like 2 mins , HAH take that Mrs Chen! >:)

going out to eat now, all i've done since the place landed is eat. I'm gonna gain lotsa weight after these 10 days :/

tar < 3

“One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching.”

—	Gerard Way.